Victims of A Crime Part II

• Marissa O'Neal

  ‎*she had been getting ready for hours, she wanted tonight to be perfect. it had been forever since her and Butch O'Neal had truly gotten to spend much time alone. standing up from her dressing table she looked in the mirror, she had on her favorite black dress her hair was done exactly how Butch liked it. walking into the Pit she saw him waiting for her. smiling at him* Hello mine Hellren.

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  Butch O'Neal ‎*Spiffed up and ready to go, he checked himself up one last time in the full-length mirror. Black Corto Maltese slacks and button-down shirt with his black lacquered Dolce&Gabbana loafers and he was dressed to kill...or seduce. A sly smile on his face, he was just waiting to take his favorite girl out to dinner. He slid on his Ralph Lauren full length leather coat and waited. When his shellan walked in, his heart skipped a beat at the sheer beauty before him. Her hair created a halo framing her features and making her look as holy as the Virgin Mary.* Baby, you are exquisite, c'mere. *As she approached he watched the feminine stride of her long legs right up to the sweet smile on her soft lips. He was in awe and proud to be called hers. He ran a hand up her long sensual neck and kisses her softly, capturing her full bottom lip between his teeth. As usual, his cock reacted of its own accord and he had to close his eyes and take in a deep breath in order to regain control of his libido.* Let's go, shall we?

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  Marissa O'Neal Thank you Butch, you look handsome as always *grinning, she still loved is Southie accent every time she heard it. walking toward her male she smiled. she could smell is arousal already and she loved knowing she did that to him. as his strong hand made contact with her neck and he killed her she felt a wave heat run through her. she couldn't help but grin as he nipped her bottom lip, he knew how much it drove her crazy. nodding to him* Sounds great, I just need my coat *before she even turn to get it he was there with her coat* Always taking care of me Nallum. *as he helped her put her coat she smiled and buttoned it* Where are we heading tonight?

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  Butch O'Neal ‎*Using the good manners he was taught in Catholic school, he placed he heavy dark grey woolen coat on her shoulders. He bent down to whisper in her ear,* I'm taking you to a quaint little Italian place off Main Street. *He chuckled as he laid a tender kiss just below her jawline.* Vishous doesn't know it yet, but he lent me his Escalade. *They walked out of the Pit as he rushed in front of Marissa to open the door and help her up.* Watch yer step, baby.* In the driver's seat he really hoped his brother wouldn't fry him for this but then he hadn't had time to ask. Fuck it, he'll get over it. He took out a Mary J. Blige CD and put in "Love a Woman" and drove off to the restaurant. One hand on the steering wheel and one on her lap, gently caressing it.*

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  Marissa O'Neal I do love Italian good baby *she knew always wanted please her, and he of course always did by remembering the little things like that. shivering as he whispered in her ear and then kissed her jawline* I hope he doesn't make you pay for that later *she said grinning. walking with him into the garage, as he opened the door to the SUV and helped her in she smiled as he closed the door and practically ran to get into the drivers seat. fastening her seat belt she watched as he put in a CD, she had been exposed to so many knew things since living in the Pit and music was one of her favorites* I like this song baby *as he laid his hand in her lap she stroked to top of it as his fingers lightly caressed her leg. as he drove she listened to the music and enjoyed the quiet time with him. it was one of her favorite things about their relationship, there was never awkward silence, it was always comfortable*

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  Butch O'Neal ‎*The drive to the restaurant was uneventful. He restrained himself from cussing out an idiot who apparently didn't know the difference between his right and his left. Once on Main Street, he found a parking spot just a few yards away and took it before he lost it. He leaned over, taking her hand and planting a soft kiss on the inside of her wrist.* I made reservations, they're waitin' on us.* Inside they were taken to the best seat in house, never-mind that he had to threaten the owner to get it. The waitress asked what they wanted to drink, he ordered a red Merlot 1989. It would go perfectly with the filet mignon he was planning on devouring.*

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  Marissa O'Neal ‎*she could feel his tension as he restrained himself from yelling at the human who cut them off, as they say, on their way there. as he parked the car, she looked around. she still was not completely comfortable being around so many humans, but she also knew Butch, would never let harm come to her. as he kissed her wrist, her heart skipped a beat, she could almost feel his fangs there already. nodding to him, she slowly eased out of the car and walked into the restaurant. the dim lighting and candles on all the tables, it was perfect* This place looks very nice Butch, how did you find it? *as they were seated she moved her chair next to his, not wanting to be apart from him at all*

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  Butch O'Neal ‎*They ordered their meal and as usual, Marissa took extreme pleasure in tasting every detail of their food. She asked for the mustard and ketchup to be able to mix the colors together...just to see how it would turn out.* Not sure how it's gonna taste, baby but knock yerself out.* It was all delicious and the wine was the perfect addition for the pallet. For dessert he watched her eat a Tiramisu with an extra helping of vanilla ice-cream. He was full but the sight of her enjoying the meal he had provided for her made his heart swell.* I take it you liked it baby? *They sat for awhile, enjoying this time together until he felt the sudden urge to be fully inside her...that would his dessert. Her sweet honey spread over his tongue.*Ok, time to go baby or else the patrons here are gonna get an eye full, you feel me?

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  Marissa O'Neal ‎*as Butch ordered they standard me she smiled at him* I love how well you know me Nallum. *when their food came she did her usual routine of trying everything and doing different combinations. she knew Butch laughed at her for it but she knew it wasn't mean laughter* You know I have to at least try it *she said with a grin. when she ordered dessert and extra ice cream she loved the face he made. it always amazed him how much she could eat. when she was finished she teasingly licked the spoon* I did very much enjoy it. *sitting back his arm around her she put her hand on his thigh and just enjoyed his touch. turning to him as he began to speak, her face flushed at his words* I feel you all the time Butch *she responded. as he paid he check she put her coat on. they were walking to the car when she heard a type of music she had never heard before. stopping she paused and looked at him* Baby what is that?

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  Butch O'Neal ‎*Outside the restaurant it was all he could do not to carry her to the Escalade and take her right there and then. Breathe in, breathe out. When he heard the Jazz music floating through the air from the bar on the corner he prayed twice. Once to his God and once to the SV he begged that she would not notice. Oh hell. *Yeah, that's old school music from the....hell, from a long time ago and well..it ain't something you'll like.*But it was too late, Marissa was standing on the corner, her eyes closed with a thin smile across her radiant face. She liked it so fuck it.* C'mon, let's go getter drink.*He was going to need more than one to stand this shit for long.*

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  Marissa O'Neal ‎*she barely heard Butch say what it was and that he didn't think she would like it. standing near the entrance to the club her eyes closed and she truly listened to it. she couldn't help but smile. she did enjoy this music. as he said they could stay she turned and placed a soft kiss on his lips* Thank you Nallum, I promise we don't have to stay long. That music it just, it makes me smile. I don't know why *as they walked into the club they sat in the back. he order them each a drink and she sat in awe of this new music* Butch, what is this music called?

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  Butch O'Neal ‎*Goose in hand, he felt better already although he kept a constant eye out, afraid someone may recognize him.*It's called Jazz, baby. It's the ancestor to...well, I guess pretty much everything I listen to now, true? *He slid over the booth to secure his shellan to his side. He placed her head in the crook of his neck and kissed the top as he scanned the entire room.* Enjoy, leelan...the song is Just a Gigolo.*He didn't explain the word, pretty certain she had no clue what a gigolo was and he wasn't sure he wanted to teach her. One thing was for damn sure...he wanted to leave the shit behind and lay with his female.*

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  Marissa O'Neal It sounds so different than anything but I do like it. *as he pulled her close, her wine in one hand she rested her head on his shoulder, kissing his vein. she closed her eyes as he kissed the top of her head. as he hand idly ran up and down his thigh she went higher than she thought and felt his rock hard cock. looking up at him their eyes locked and she scented the dark spices she loved so much* Nallum, would you like to go home?

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  Butch O'Neal ‎*At her words, a huge grin made its way across his face.* I thought you'd never ask, baby.*It took all but three minutes for him to leave a twenty on the table and have them out the door and walking to the Escalade. He only hoped he could make it to their bed because as it stood at that very second, they were going to end up in the back of the 4x4. Once inside, he took a deep breath which was not the wisest since her ocean scent invaded his nostrils and traveled straight to his already aching cock.* Hmm, ok...put yer seatbelt on and..erm...close yer eyes. We're atta heea.

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  Marissa O'Neal ‎*she giggled at his response* Take me home Nallum *he practically tan her back to the SUV. she had a huge smile on her face the entire time. there was nothing she loved more than making love to her Hellren. as he opened her door she hopped into the car and waited for him. as he got in she looked at him and smiled, it caused his bonding scent to roar and fill her head. she did as he said, but before she closed her eyes she looked at him* I love you Butch O'Neal and cannot wait to get home and show you how much.

  Trez Moor

  ‎*After doing his rounds in the Mask he heads back to his office. Has a seat at the mammoth of Mahogany Desk. He stares at his Security monitor's all 9 of them. He has security camera's all over the Mask, except the Restrooms. He has them set up outside as well, Front door and all back doors and alleys. He props his feet up on the desk and just sits and waits. Making sure that everyone that comes thru them doors are safe! Order must be in store here. Especially for his girls. He watches them go in the back with "a John" and makes sure they return in one piece. If anyone of them "Johns" hurts so much as a hair on one of his girls, he would skin them alive like the "old ways". Then roast their carcass and chew on them and go back to what he was doing as if nothing had happen. One thing was for sure, No one f's with his girls and gets away with it*

  Phury Ahgony

  ‎*He awoke slowly. As his mind hovered in that place between slumber and consciousness, he continued to dream. In his dream, the wizard spoke. Calling him back. And it was so tempting. The wizard knew what he truly was, the only one who saw him. He stared at the wizard for a moment, and then Cormia stirred beside him. The reminder that she was there was enough to draw him further awake, and he let the wizard slip further away. He rolled over to Cormia and pulled her up tightly against him, enfolding her in his arms. As he buried his face in her hair he was once again anchored.*

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  The Black Dagger Brotherhood Family 

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  Zee Ahgony

  ‎*running his calloused fingertips over the photo in his hand he stared blankly at the smiling faces looking back at him, his females. Bella looked stunning as ever, holding a grinning Nalla in her arms, and there was no denying the love the two felt for each other. Yeah, even someone like him could tell that there was a special bond between mahmen and young. How would it have been had he felt a mother's love? Would he even have been deserving of it? Would he have turned out like Phury, instead of being the scarred one. Scarred on more ways than one; hell, his skin had healed a long time ago and his bones had mended, but the darkness that had engulfed him for so many centures had left his heart cold and his soul bitter. Even now, after being surrounded by love he wasn't even sure he was deserving of yet, the old memories and thoughts surfaced with a vengenance, every now and then. The talk with Qhuinn hadn't done shit, and if anything it had brought up stuff that had long been burried, yet apparently not deep enough.

  Putting the photo aside, Zee rose to his feet, the material of his black leathers rustling as he stalked out of the room. Leaving the safety of his and Bella's room behind he headed down the steps, bee lining it for the kitchen. Digging his dagger into the meat of an apple was a better idea than picking up old habits, just so much less effective on his mood.

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  Phury Ahgony ‎*He stopped in the kitchen before leaving the mansion to head back up to the Adirondaks. Cormia had asked for some chutney that Fritz kept on hand, and he had promised to bring it to her. Not that he really knew what the hell chutney was or what one did with it. Didn't matter, gave him an excuse to stop and see the doggen. At first Fritz looked distressed at seeing a brother in his kitchen, but his face light up when he was asked to help find something. While he waited, leaning against the counter, Zee came in. He was happy to see his twin, until he got a look at the male's face. Fuck. That was a look Phury hadn't seen in awhile, and was hoping to not see again. It was a cross between the look Zee would get when he asked Phury to pound the shit out of him, and the look he got when he wanted to pound the shit out of someone. Either way it was not a good fucking sign. That was probably one of the main reasons it was a good thing he no longer lived in the mansion. This was nothing he could stomach on a daily basis. He carefully made his face blank and met Zee's eyes, which were flat and black. * Hello, mine twin. What's going on?

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  Zee Ahgony ‎*he had known Phury was present the second he opened the door, his twin's scent lingering in the air like a bad perfume. most days he could deal with the 'concerned cheery let me fix you' version of himself, but today not even Phury was safe of his mood, or especially not. While Zsadist had spent centuries enduring pain and horrors greater than anyone could understand, not that he would want them to anyway, Phury had been cradled and loved. Doted on. While he had to beg for everything as a young, Phury had been showered with it. Hadn't he? But it wasn't the other male's fault, was it? Fuck it, today that didn't matter. He needed an outlet for the storm that was brewing inside his chest, and if he didn't find it soon there would be a hurricane like no other. Glancing up at his twin Zee let out a bored sigh, grabbing a Granny Smith from the pile and shining it on his shirt.* Phury. *He'd just ignore the question, by now the other brother should be used to that, too*

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  Phury Ahgony ‎*He sighed inwardly, but didn't let it show. He could feel the hostility rolling off Zee in waves. He had no clue what the fuck had his brother riled this time, and wasn't sure he wanted to jump into that fucking mess right now. What he wanted to do was get the fucking whatever it was Mia wanted, the chutney, and get his ass home. He immediately felt guilty, which pissed him off, which made him feel even guiltier. Fuck, what the hell was wrong with him today? He had been away from the roller coaster that was Zee for so long he had forgotten what it was like. The guilt was normal, for him. Zee being pissed off, that was normal too. It hadn't really happened for awhile, but something had set his brother off. He decided to try for joking and lighthearted, see if that got Zee talking. And, there was the fact that Zee had just ignored his fucking question, his manners sucked. So, screwing with him just a little would make them just a little bit even.*

  My brother, you are pissed about something, and I want to help. *he laughed* I know, the puppy chewed your leathers, or you stepped in puppy shit? Well, you want we can go work off that frustration. I will keep you company while you shovel horse shit, taking care of the pony or horse or whatever the hell you have for Nalla. *he knew there was a bit of a shit eating grin on his face, but he couldn't hide it completely. He leaned against the counter, one foot crossed over the other, wondering why he was being such a smart ass this day. He sobered a little, and tried again. * Seriously, my brother, I don't know what has you in such a state. Is there anything I can do to help?

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  Zee Ahgony ‎*within the blink of an eye Zee crossed the distance between him and his twin, now standing nose to nose, his nostrils flaring as his lip curved into a sneer. He was in no mood to play this shit of game Phury had in mind, and playing Oprah on him was a damn fuckin' bad, right now* We both know I ignored your question the first time, *his words a snarl* So do yourself a favor and back off. And the next time you bring Nalla into this, just by mentioning her name, I am going to pound your head through that wall, right there. *his precious princess had nothing to do with this, and nobody.. not ever.. should mention her in the same sentences as his blood curling mood*

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  Phury Ahgony ‎*He straightened as soon as Zee came at him. For some reason, he just couldn't fucking deal with being threatened. And he was getting sick of this fucker throwing his attempts at helping back in his face. Suddenly, they were toe to toe and Phury wondered if they were going to end up pounding the shit out of each other here in Fritz's fucking kitchen. * Fuck Zee, why don't you back the fuck off. It was a fucking joke. I don't know what the fuck your problem is, but it is not me. And yeah, I know you ignored me. Nothing new there, right?

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  Zee Ahgony ‎*after the second fuck he tuned off, eyes as dark as a black hole locked on Phury as the other male continued to ramble on, all nonesense as far as Zsadist was concerned. the scent that was jumping off him was a mix of fear and anger; good, he should be angry. Finally his twin was feeling something real about him, other than the whole 'pity party' for his long lost brother. What was it with Phury's samaritan complex, and his insistant babbling about Zee's pain he was feeling.. the danger he was for himself and to others. Okay, so maybe Phury didn't say all that, but he didn't have to. He knew his brother well enough to read his thoughts, even when they weren't spoken. Welcome to the twin thing.* Because I don't fuckin' feel like it. Fuckin' got it, fucker? *a shit eating smirk tugged on his lips, arms crossing over his chest as he straightened* No matter how much fuck you use it is not going to make me come cry on your shoulder. *he cracked his neck, blowing out a breath he hadn't known he'd been holding* No it's nothing new. Maybe if you changed your story every once in a while I would listen. On second thought, probably still not. *returning his attention to the apple in his hand, Zee dug out a dagger from his boot, snapping the thing open and stabbing the fruit with a verocity great enough to splatter juice and small pieces over the counter off to the side* Remember when you said you would have traded with me, if you could have? That's a lie. Even not knowing half the shit that went down you'd rather have your perfect little life than mine. Having the others look at me like I am some kind of misfit infant who can't manage his life is one thing, but having you constantly remind me just how unfit I am is really starting to piss me off.

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  Phury Ahgony ‎*He stared at the male before him, who was, at this moment, well and truly a stranger. He had known that Zee blamed him, it had never been spoken in those exact terms, but it was there. And truly, couldn't fault him for that. Phury blamed himself more than Zee ever could. But not one fucking time was there even a thought that Zee was incapable, or less of a male of worth than any of them. Fuck, Zee was, more so than anyone Phury knew. What sent him over the edge, though, was being called a fucking liar. He felt his rage grow to almost uncontrollable proportions, and the accompanying adrenaline rush and aggression had his fangs throbbing painfully. He wanted to fight his brother in the worst way. He struggled to regain some sense of calm before speaking. And was completely unsuccessful. He forced himself not to put his hands on his brother as he surged closer to Zee. He could feel his heart pounding in his chest, and he wondered if this was it. If this is when all the things that had never dared been uttered between them spewed forth. And he prayed to the scribe that it was not, as he didn't think that it was something they would be able to recover from. He wanted to remove himself from the situation, but knew that he was in no condition to dematerialize and get himself back to the Adirondacks. And fuck, maybe this needed to happen. Good decision or not, he couldn't completely hold back any longer, and a little of the venom flowing through him at that moment spewed forth.*

  You miserable fuck. It's like you are part damn sin-eater, coming in here and spreading your misery to me, so you could use it to piss me off. What's the matter Zee, couldn't get from sad to angry so you decided to use me to help you along? I am sick of fucking tiptoeing around you. You talk about my perfect little life. Don't you presume for a second to know my life, or anything about me. I am just learning what it is to have a life that doesn't revolve around you. You don't want to talk to me, that's fine. Better, even. The fact that you blame me is obvious, you just haven't the stones to admit it. * He paused, looking around the well appointed kitchen for a moment, trying to settle down enough to rein himself in before something happened that couldn't be undone. He caught a glimpse of his reflection in the stainless steel refrigerator. And was in shock at the way he was standing, as if he wanted to kill his own brother. He forced himself to draw a breath. Deliberately, he relaxed his stance, and leaned against the wide expanse of countertop once more. When he started to speak once more, it was in a much more subdued tone.* Zee, I have never once lied to you. I am not going to delve back into all the things that have been said already. You know, if you were to be honest with yourself, that you also blame me. And if you could have switched places with me, you would have, in a heartbeat. And I wish I could give you that, my brother. However, I think that you will find it is not the picture you have painted in your mind. I truly apologize if I have ever made you feel as if I felt you incompetent or less of a male. I can assure you, I don't see you as such. I do, however, think it is your turn to get off the fucking cross. You said that to me, and I actually listened. I got off the fucking cross, and I made a life for myself. Found love. And had a family. All the things that are right in front of your face. You are so busy being fucking miserable, you are missing out on true happiness. I am sorry for what happened to you, you will never know the depth of my sorrow. It is time to move on though. No one can do that for you, so I am not going to try. Scribe knows, I have never been able to save you.

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  Zee Ahgony ‎*The hair on the back of his neck started to rise, his hands clutching dagger and apple tightly.

  Drip. Drip.

  Squishing the apple with brute force, the juices ran through his fingers and pooled down by his feet.

  The more Phury talked the more Zsadist wanted blood, imagining the liquid on the floor to be black, his hands stained not by fruit but the juice of life.*

  Miserable fuck, really? *he scoffed, balancing the dagger on the tip of his index finger* Looks like you know me better than I thought, after all. Congratulations, brother. Are you proud?

  Now, let's think about this for a moment. I came here to grab and apple and enjoy silence. It was YOU who talked to me, and not the other way around. So if I am spreading my misery to you, then you were asking for it, wanting it. Maybe because you need to repair someone.. someone else than yourself.

  *tossing the apple aside he rubbed his hands on a nearby kitchen towel, snatching a new Granny Smith

  and peeling it meticulously*

  I am not here to piss you off, neither do I have the desire to do so, because let's face it .. my world does not evolve round you. I am not the one asking you to tiptoe around me, you are the one doing it

  because you are too fuckin' scared to face your brother. You rather go away hiding and when you do come around take a bee line around me. Why safe me? Tell me, Phury. Why go through all that trouble only to find out you hate me more than you thought possible. That I am not the perfect reflection of you, that in fact I am a motherfucker who cares about nothing and no one. Filled with hate to the top, my thoughts dark and not those of joy. Tell me, does it mess with you that I am not bowing to you for getting me out?

  *Fine, maybe he was a miserable fuck and maybe he was crossing a line that shouldn't even be drawn, but right now and right here Phury was doing the same. And how did they say; an eye for an eye*

  I am not the one blaming you, you are the blaming yourself, but it is easier to put it all one someone else, isn't it? Keep everything at your door at bay and throw someone else to the wolves. And yeah, I would have traded places with someone had I been able to, at first. After a while I didn't care no longer, and not only because I was drugged out of my godforsaken mind. Yet, never enough to not remember. But given the choice, no I wouldn't put you in my shoes, I wouldn't wish on you what was done to me. You know why? Because you did

  everything with the right intensions, your heart was do damn pure when you came to me. I still remember the horror in your eyes as you stood in the corner. Our problems didn't start until after we were in the clear, and you figured out that you couldn't repair me or make up for the lost centuries.

  *Fuck, when did he turn into a waterfall of words. Now standing toe to toe with Phury again, he took a step back. He hadn't noticed how he had crept closer toward the other male, his body and mind seperated by his quick tongue*

  For your information, since we are having this heartfelt talk... I did jump off the cross, as you call it. I was pulled down by Bella and kept down by my young. Now tell me, you never have the desire to go back to using. *he scoffed, a smirk on his lip* You can't, can you? No, because you don't lie to me. So, for fuck's sake then, don't try to guilt trip me for being in the dump, when you rather jump the rainbow again, too.

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  Phury Ahgony ‎*Speechless. Utterly speechless. How did Zee know? How did he know that the wizard had come back for him. Did he know how tempting it was to return to that life? A sense of panic, of utter fucking despair arose in him and he didn't know if he was going to be able to push it back down. He felt the blood leave his face, and he had to fight the urge to push past his brother and run*

  *He closed his eyes, the fight had left him. It had always been thus. When it came right down to it, he lost the will to fight. It was how he ended up an addict. He grew so weary of the fight that he gave up completely. Now he wondered if he were nearing that point again. Dearest Scribe, he hoped not. He made a mental note to call his sponsor, and go to an extra NA meeting that evening. There, that gave him something to cling to. Action, as it were. Now, to address what stood in front of him. His brother. Or, more accurately, what stood between the two of them. A barrier that may never be truly breached. Every time he thought it had, they regressed, until it felt like they had never made any progress at all. He remembered when Zee was trying to improve himself, so he would feel worthy of Bella. It had been so humbling to know that. To know that this male before him had that kind of drive. And it had been fucking heartbreaking to know that he felt at all unworthy. However, with Zee, you didn't go to him and say these things. You didn't tell him things that you admired about him. Zee didn't know how to deal with that, with people caring about him. He remembered the email he had gotten, around the holidays. It had seemed as if Zee had really been trying then, as well. As if he understood. As if he gave a fuck about his brother. Phury wondered what had sent Zee into this tailspin. And then he realized that it was not his business, Zee had made it clear, numerous times times, that he couldn't do anything to help him, and that he didn't welcome the interference. That he had said this much was staggering. Even more staggering was the acknowledgement that Phury's intention had been good. However, even he knew that good intentions didn't mean shit. Action did. And if he were honest with himself, Zee was right. It took far too long to find Zee. And while he was taking decades to find him, Zee was living in Hell. And that was the key. Zee had the courage to live through that. And to heal himself, without the fucking crutches that Phury himself had used. No wonder Zee despised him. He didn't know what to say, or where to begin*

  *He started to speak, and then had to clear his throat. Nothing came out at first. He started again, his tone came out oddly formal.* Zee. I owe you an apology. I am sorry for making you feel as if I thought you were... less, that you were lacking in any way. You are right. About the blame, and, the rest of it as well. The only thing that you are wrong about is saying that I hate you. I do not hate you. Have never done so. You are my brother.

  I am going to go find Fritz and get Mia's chutney. I should have left you to your space before, and will try to do so in the future.

  And one last thing. About the using, and my desire to go back to it. That subject is closed. It is not going to happen, and there is no need to discuss it further.

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  Zee Ahgony ‎*His chest rose up and fell down with anticipation; his heart, underneath his ribcage, was beating almost painfully.

  But the fight his body was prepping itself for never came, and the defeat in Phury's eyes made one thing very clear -

  he was indeed a fuckin' piece of shit. He. Zsadist, son of Ahgony. While there had been a time where he hadn't cared for anyone but himself, and even times when he hadn't even cared about his own well being, it had changed over the last few years. People had crept into his lives that meant something to him, and as much as he hated to admit it to himself, he hoped he meant something to them, too. So, why was he pushing everyone away when all he had to do was

  ask for help? For advise. And as always Phury was his favorite victim; maybe because he knew what buttons to push or maybe because he also knew that Phury would never leave him, no matter what was said or what happened. Was he too sure of Bella's love, too? Was he worth her, even? Grinding his teeth, Zsadist took a step back and turned to the sink, running his hands under a stream of scolding hot water.*

  You don't owe me anything. I don't want you to think you do. And while you may not hate your brother, you do hate the vampire he has turned into. I don't blame you for wanting someone to play pool with, someone to talk about whatever crap. Like V and the Cop.

  *he shrugged, turning the faucet off and drying his reddened skin on a dish towel*

  My best to Mia, and I hope for her sake that you are true to your word. It's enough if one of us fucks up. The other should assure to make our family name proud.

  *A name he hadn't known for most of his life, a name that had little value or meaning. Zsadist would be the fuck up and Phury would be the A + student, such was the natural order of their life.

  He watched as the other male left, his shoulders relaxing as the solitude he craved so much was returned to him. The chutney Phury had came for was still untouched on the counter, Fritz' scent lingering in the air. When had the old doggen brought it, and how had neither of them noticed him? Had they really been so consumed by their loathing that nothing around them had mattered?

  Snatching the chutney from the counter Zsadist returned his dagger to the inside of his boot and darted away from the kitchen, coming to a quick halt after brushing past his twin.* Your shellan will want this. *After dropping the item into the other vampire's hand he made a quick exit toward his and Bella's private chambers. Was she there? Would she see the change, that he was feeling, in his eyes? There were too many damn questions he didn't want to have to answer, and he prayed to the virgin Sribe that none of them would be voiced tonight*

  Qhuinn Lohstrong

  ‎*After he had left he training facility and his run in with Zee, he detoured into the kitchen, grabbing the tray of food he had asked a Doggen to prepare for Mhisery wakening. Walking up the stairs, he elbowed open their bedroom door and set the tray on the cabinet by her sleeping form. Leaning over he brushed a kiss to her brow and walked into the bathroom to take a quick shower. Coming back out, he slung on a fresh pair of shorts and moved back around the bed again, sitting down beside her and resting a hand on her bare shoulder.

  His body was tight, tense not from the workout but from the confrontation with the other male. He didn't regret what he had said, fuck, it had been the truth and he wouldn't take back those words.* Mhisery, leelan, I brought you First Meal *he looked down at her, a nerve ticking in his jaw as he tried to force back the anger that coursed through him*

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  Mhisery Muhrdock ‎*She felt his warm hand fall on her bare shoulder and she rolled over to look up at him. His features were tight and a tic worked in his jaw. The entire time they had been together she had only seen him like this once, and that was recently when she woke to find him sitting on the ledge drinking. Concern etched on her face as she went through a mental checklist of what could be causing such intensity with her hellren. She pushed up in the bed and looked at him for what seemed to be an eternity.Generally she wouldn't press him on issues, but this had be going on for a few days now, and she was concerned*. I'm not really that hungry nallum, but I want to know what's wrong?

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  Qhuinn Lohstrong Nothings wrong *He snapped out then instantly regretted his tone* I am sorry leelan, I didn't mean to snap at you *he rubbed his hand over his short hair and blew out a slow breath* I had a run in with Zsadist. Getting into my face about shit that doesn't concern him. *again a small hint of a icy blast drifted off him. He looked at her for a few minutes, his face blank* Why did your parents give your name leelan? Why Mhisery? Why not something else? Why did they choose that name *He knew he was pushing it but something was forcing him to do ask the question.*

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  Mhisery Muhrdock ‎*She stared at him a long moment, her jaw nearly lax. He had never pressed the issue before and he knew more than most, but not all. The chill that hit her full on felt as almost an accusation of her name. It was was obvious that her name was not a positive cogitation so why would he want to talk with her about it now. She looked down and didn't meet his gaze as she toyed with the edge of the sheet.* Well, my father always said that I would not bring anyone anything but Misery. So he decided that needed to be my brand in life.

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  Qhuinn Lohstrong ‎*He hated the words that fell out of his mouth before before they sounded in the room* You ever think that was the case? *He closed his eyes and steeled his jaw, if she slapped him for those words he would deserve them but this feeling of no self worth was spilling out him and he couldn't help himself.* Mine should have been regret. Regret by my parents that they ever had me, Regret by the Brotherhood for allowing me into their midst. Regret that you would let someone like me even touch you, never mind bed you. *He rubbed his hand over his face, his finger and thumb pressing into his temples*

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  Mhisery Muhrdock ‎*She nodded slowly* I have always told you that I felt I lived up to my name and then some. I mean come on the first night you came here was because of the misery I caused on another person it's not like I tried to hide it as for your name, I don't know what you did before I got here but I don't regret anything about you because it got you to the person you are today and that being the person I'm in love with. *The overwhelming fear of her father's words settled into her being. She was utter misery personified. She turned in the bed as she felt a wave of nausea at the prospect hitting her in the gut. She slid from the bed and went into the bathroom for fear of getting sick in front of him*

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  Qhuinn Lohstrong Fuck *he turned on the edge of the bed, his elbows on his knees, his head in his hands. What the fuck was wrong with him, he loved her and yet he just made her feel like shit? Just another regret and idiotic move on his part. Rising to his feet, he rounded the bed and leaned against the bathroom door, his voice low, unsure if she would even hear him or not* Leelan, I am sorry. You are not Misery to me, you are everything to me and I am sorry I pushed that on you. I just can't get this shit out of my head of what I had done. That I don't deserve to be here. That i don't deserve anything good in my life

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  Mhisery Muhrdock ‎*She sat on the cool tile of the bathroom floor as tears ran rivers down her cheeks and her stomach threatened evacuation of contents it did not have. She was not mad at him or hurt by him, she hurt for him. She knew exactly what it felt like to live with so much self loathing that it radiated from every cell of one's being and spilled into the life of others. She knew what it felt like to examine her life and hate what she saw, and what it was like to just look at it from afar because if she looked too closely she saw all the cracks. She did her best to still her voice and not to give away the mess she was on the other side of the door from him* Qhuinn I have told you more than once, you saved me. So whatever you did in your life to get you to the point that you were able to do that, I'm thankful for. *She had rather him feel anger, or hate for her than the hurt she could hear in his voice. It was the type of pain that lived with you and could consume you wholly*

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  Qhuinn Lohstrong ‎*He closed her eyes as he listened to her words, his forehead pressed against the wood of the door. Lifting his hand, he opened the door and stepped into the dimly lit bathroom, glancing around until he settled on her. Fuck, she was crying, could he be anymore of a fuck up than he already was? He doubted it with every fiber of his being. Kneeling down onto the tiles beside her, he reached for her small hand, taking it into his and stroking the pad of his thumb across his knuckles.* Don't listen to me leelan, I am talking out of my ass as usual. Come, let me feed you and we can do something instead of sitting in this room. I should *he swallowed back the bile that threatened to consume him at the thought of facing the rest of the household* I should introduce to everyone else.

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  Mhisery Muhrdock ‎*She wiped her cheeks and looked up at him* I know a few of them and I'm really not hungry. I think I would like to talk to Marissa though. She was really nice to me when I first came here and I think she kinda understands me, if that makes sense. *She leaned in close to him and pressed her lips to his high cheek bone* Think nothing of it nallum and stop being so hard on yourself. You are your own worst enemy, why would we ever need lessers to destroy us, when we have our own selves as enemies? I think I'm going to just get a shower and I'll be out in a little bit, okay?

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  Qhuinn Lohstrong ‎*His throat worked overtime to stop anything else coming out of his mouth that he would regret. Instead, he pulled her into his arms, wrapping them tight around her and inhaling hard. Stepping back, he gave her a half grin and pressed a kiss to the top of her head, tucking her hair behind her ears and nodding* Take your time Leelan, I will in the bedroom for now. *He turned towards the door and gave her a final look over his shoulder, his face trouble before he closed it between them*

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  2 months ago

  Fritz Perlmutter

  ‎*He stood outside the door to the kitchen, the jar of chutney clutched, forgotten, in his hand. He could hear the heated discussion going on, and he didn't want to impose or interrupt them. The brothers fighting was nothing new, but the emotion he could hear coming from both of them made him sad. He waited for them to stop. He had to give Master Phury the chutney. When it was silent in his kitchen once more, he went in, bowed to the brothers and set the chutney down on the counter and quickly gathered the needed materials to clean the Queen's cat.* Ok I have towels, a soft wash cloth, a rubber mat for the tub, a cup with cat shampoo in it and two cotton balls for his ears. *He places everything in his bathroom near the tub for easy access, he turns on the faucet and waits for the water to warm up just above room temperature and puts the plug in and allows the water to fill up to roughly 2 inches so it is not too deep for Boo.* Now to find him *He walks to Wrath and Beth’s room and knocks, he waits but there was no answer so he peeks his head in to find that they were not in there, so he enters and quickly tidies up the room while looking for Boo, next he goes down to the main room where Lass and Boo like to watch their Bruce Lee movies together* Aha, there you are kitty. *He walk over and starts to pet Boo and gently picks him up while continuing for pet him and quickly walks to his room where his bath awaits*

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  Boo Randall ‎*He thinks that he is enjoying Fritz’s petting but at the same time is wondering why Fritz is walking down the hall with him towards his room.Oh well as long as he keeps petting me, I don’t really care*

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  Fritz Perlmutter ‎*He enters his room, with Boo in his arms still stroking the Kitty, walks past his bed, right into the bathroom and nudges the door partially shut with his foot. He hears Boo let out a drawn out Meoooow, if he didn’t know better he would think that Boo was asking him a question* Ok ok Kitty lets stay calm, lets make this as quick and painless as possible. *He goes to his knees and grabs the two cotton balls and places then in each of Boo’s ears and then quickly but gently places Boo in the warm water that only goes a little over his paws, he took one hand off of Boo to get the cup with the shampoo in it and starts to pour it on Boo’s back, in the split second that his attention was diverted, Boo squirms out of his hold and starts jumping and clawing trying to get out of the bath tub*

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  Boo Randall ‎*Feeling threatened he lets out a distinct Meow, like a war cry and starts swiping his drawn out claws at Fritz’s arms. With ease his sharp claws shreds through his sleeves, leaving long slashes on Fritz’s arms.*

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  Fritz Perlmutter ‎*Wincing in pain from the cuts inflicted by Boo’s sharp claws, he is still trying to get a hold of Boo to calm him down and finish the bathing process, but Boo is much stronger then he looks plus he is soaking wet and cant get a good grip on him. Boo was able to get some traction on the rubber mat that he put down and made a quick and powerful jump to get out of the tub and as he tried to stop Boo, he hit a patch of water on the tiled floor and lost his balance and fell hitting his head.*

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  Boo Randall ‎*Once his wet paws landed on the tile the momentum slid him towards the bathroom door and he was able to escape. Running as fast as he could he didn’t even look back to see what happened to Fritz and found a safe hiding spot in Wrath and Beth's bedroom closet. He takes his paw and scratches at his ear to try to dislodge the cotton ball that was stuck, the moment the cotton ball falls out he curls up in a ball and falls asleep*

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  Fritz Perlmutter ‎*He opened his eyes feeling a little bit woozy and has a splitting headache, his jacket sleeves look like they were put in a blender and does not know how he ended up on the bathroom floor. As he laid there he heard a soft voice coming from behind him asking, “what happened?”* Madam Elizabeth all I remember is that I was trying to clean Boo, then next thing I know I woke up here on the floor.

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  Elizabeth Randall ‎*hearing a loud noise in the bathroom she ran and found Fritz lying on the floor soaking wet* What happened? *hearing his explanation she bent down and helped the sweet Doggen sit up* Please Fritz, call me Beth. *she sat down on the floor next to him* Should I call Jane?

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  Fritz Perlmutter Thank you Madam Beth, I think calling Doc Jane would be a wonderful idea because Something doesn't seem right, while I was on the floor all I could think about is when I worked for Master Sampson and his daughter disappeared and I felt responsible for that.

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  Elizabeth Randall ‎*hearing his words her heart ached for him* Ok Frtiz, I will send her a message now. *taking out her phone she wrote a quick message ~Jane, Fritz has had an accident in the upstairs bathroom. He has fallen and hit his head, he would like for you to check him sometime soon~ hitting send she turned back to Fritz* As soon as she answers I will let you know. *remembering his words she reached for his hand and squeezed it* Fritz, I assure you, that was not your fault *she had only heard stories of the event. thinking of it made her think of her Father again an her heart hurt again. how she wished she had known him*

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  Fritz Perlmutter ‎*He felt Beth's gentle squeeze on his hand, and felt a little comfort but deep down inside he still feels that he should have done more to prevent Sampson's daughters disappearance, perhaps checking on her to see if she needed something when she retired to her room.* Thank you again, but I feel that I have failed as a doggen first it was Sampson's daughter disappearing and then it was Master Darius' untimely death.

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  Elizabeth Randall ‎*listening to his words she hated the sadden she heard in his voice. as he spoke of her Father's death, she had to bite back tears. she often asked herself if she had known him and been part of his life would he not be gone now, but she needed to try and help Fritz now. looking at his sad eyes she offered him a warm smile* Fritz, my father's death had nothing to do with you. And from what I have read in his journals you were wonderful to him from the very first day and he valued you so very much *she loved talking about her father but hated it at the same time. she missed him so much, she never thought she could miss someone she had never met, but the fact was, that made it even worse*

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  Jane Bloodletter ‎*After receiving the text from Beth, she rose from behind her desk in the small office and reached for her ever present bag. Telling both dogs to stay, she left the room, walked back through the tunnels and into the Mansion. Making her way to Fritz' room, she knocked sharply once and opened the door, following the sound of voices in the Bathroom. Giving the Doggen a reassuring smile, she set her bag down and pulled out a pair of gloves, her body turning solid and she turned back to look at them both* So what happened?

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  Fritz Perlmutter I am sorry Madam Jane, its all my fault that you had to come up here. All I remember was that I was trying to give Boo a bath and I slipped on the wet tiled floor and then I woke up and Beth was in here. I am so sorry to have bothered you.

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  Elizabeth Randall ‎*sitting with Fritz as he explained to Jane what happened, she smiled at Jane. standing she went and sat on the edge of the tub giving Jane room to look Fritz over*

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  Jane Bloodletter ‎*Smiling, she knelt down beside him and reached into her top pocket for the small flashlight.* If you can just look at me for a moment please Fritz *She shone the light into his right eye, noted the dilation in his pupil then moved onto the second one which also dilated. Giving a low noise of approval, she ran her fingertips lightly over the back of his head, then shifted to move behind him* Well I am pleased to say you do not have concussion and there is no abrasion to the site of impact, but you do have a rather large lump. I will leave you some pain relief and I want you to take the rest of today off. One of the other Doggen can come sit with you for a while. If you feel nauseated in any way I want you to call me, do you understand?

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  Fritz Perlmutter ‎*He did his best to start directly at Jane's green eyes despite the bright light pointed at his face.* Yes I will be sure to call if I start to feel sick. I am sorry for failing as a doggen here Madam Jane and Madam Beth, just like I did when I worked for Master Sampson and Master Darius. *He unsteadily rose to his feet with the air of the tub and shuffled his way out of the bathroom towards his bedchamber*

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  Jane Bloodletter ‎*She gave a small frown at the Doggen's words and glanced over at Beth. Rising to her feet, she stripped off the gloves and threw them into the trash can, reached for her bag and with a quiet Goodbye, she left the room and returned to her office*

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  Elizabeth Randall ‎*she hated hearing his words* Fritz you have not failed at anything *standing up from the tub* I will stay with him for a while now Jane. Thank you for coming so quickly and checking him out, it means a great deal to me *he was a connection to Darius and she could not handle if anything happened to him, it would be like losing her father all over again and that she just could not handle. walking into his room she saw him lying in his bed and wondered if the loss of her father had not caused part of his sadness and in turn wondered if her presence made it worse for him, or for that matter harder for every one else. sitting in a chair across from his bed she attempted to smile at him*

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  Fritz Perlmutter ‎*He sees Beth's attempted smile and gives one back at her* Madam Beth, I have taken up too much of your time already. I am sure one of the other doggen will be here in a little bit. I am just going to close my eyes and try to sleep this off. Please go and make sure that Boo is...*before he can finish his words he falls asleep*

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  Elizabeth Randall ‎*she was about to argue with him when he fell asleep. standing she made sure he was covered and kissed is forehead, they way she imagined her mother would have with her as s child. sighing she walked out of his room and back to her and King-Wrath Son Of-Wrath's. once again finding herself wondering if she wasn't somehow the cause of this amazing family losing her father. sitting down on the bed she felt the all too familiar sting of tears, stroking her belly she let the tears flow again*

  Mhisery Muhrdock

  ‎*She had finished her shower and dressed, leaving Qhuinn comatose on their bed while the television watched him. She had phoned Marissa a little while earlier and she had agreed to talk with her. She made her ways down the stairs to the common room where they had set up to meet. She turned left at the bottom of the stairs, crossing the mosaics, she took a seat on one of the couches in the empty common area and waited for Marissa to come in. She was not a great at talking about things, and even worse about opening up to anyone, much less a female that had been with the glymeria.*

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  Marissa O'Neal ‎*throwing on one of Butch's sweatshirts and a pair of her yoga pants, she left the Pit and headed for the main house. putting in the code for the door that opened under the stairs. walking into the common room she saw Mhisery waiting for her. walking up to the couch she was on she sat at the other end, pulling her legs under her, she smiled at Mhisery* Good eve Mhisery

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  Mhisery Muhrdock ‎*She tried to smile up at the beautiful female that was now seated down from her* Hey Marissa, thanks for seeing me. I'll just cut to the chase. Look, you remember when we first met you said that you had been in the glymeria, and what it had been like for you? Do you ever think they were right? The reason I ask is that Qhuinn asked if I thought the things that my father said about me were right and it got me thinking. *She swallowed hard. She didn't want the female to think that she was trying to bring her down, but she wondered if the thoughts she was having were, well, normal. She had never really thought about it until Qhuinn had mentioned it, and now it seemed to an obsession of hers. She would never betray Qhuinn by telling anyone anything he had said about himself, but she needed to get someone's prospective on why he had asked her the things about being misery to everyone she met*

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  Marissa O'Neal ‎*she could tell by Mhisery's tone that this was not something she wanted to truly be talking about...ever. and as she asked her the question she did, her heart sank. she had asked herself that very question more times than she could count, and if she was honest with herself, she still did ask herself that often* Mhisery, I have asked myself that question more times than I can count. *sighing, she did not want to be dishonest with her but also did not want to make Mhisery feel worse* No I do not think they were right about me or you for that matter.

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  Mhisery Muhrdock ‎*She exhaled a breath she didn't realize she had been holding and ran her hand through the still-damp, ebony locks of her hair* I just don't know why he would ask me that though. *She knew why. She knew he was hurting and seeking validation in his pain, just as she was seeking validation in hers now. She knew he would have never done anything to hurt her or make her question herself, but her she was doing it.* Do you think that on some level he might think it's true because honestly my biggest fear is hurting him.

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  Marissa O'Neal ‎*watching as Mhisery's body relaxed a little, she tugged on the sleeves of Butch's sweatshirt. looking away a little form her face, afraid her own fears about the glymera and Havers were right about her and that she really had made the biggest mistake of her life be being with Butch. mentally shaking herself, she reached forward and took Mhisery's hand* No, they were not right, your father was not right. You Mhiser Muhrdock are amazing female of worth. I have never seen Qhuinn as happy as he has been since you came into his life *unsure if she knew what he had been through just before she arrived she kept most things to herself* He was a shell of a male before you got here and you fixed that. You did that Mhisery, you brought him back and made him happy. You bring life to everyone you are around. Never think that you are what you were named for, you are far from that.

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  Mhisery Muhrdock ‎*She knew some of the things Qhuinn had told her, put she never pressed him, just like she never told him much more than what she had to. Not that she thought he would think any less or her, but she didn't want to see pity or even hatred in his eyes. Those mix matched eyes of his could make her feel more love than she had ever know, and honestly she was afraid that the wrong look from them could do just as much damage. She met Marissa's oceanic eyes* I think I need to talk to him, maybe he was just wondering about my past and wasn't really so sure how to ask. *She placed her hand on top of Marissa's and gave a squeeze* I know I kinda keep to myself, and that is only because I don't want to intrude on the lives you all have here, but I owe you so much. If you hadn't brought me here I would have died in more ways than one, so from the bottom of my heart, thank you.

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  Marissa O'Neal ‎*smiling back at her as she squeezed her hand back* I think that is a perfect idea Mhisery. Qhuinn is a wonderful male and very understanding. *her heart swelled at Mhisery's kind words* I am so glad that I could do that for you. As I said you are a great female of worth, I hope that you always remember that, no matter what anyone says. *she only wished she had as much confidence in herself as she was trying to present to Mhisery*

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  Mhisery Muhrdock ‎*She stood up and gave Marissa a hug and a hopeful smile before she headed upstairs to find Qhuinn. She felt the need to talk with him about her past and hopefully he would open up about his.* Thanks again Marissa.

  Marissa O'Neal ‎*standing she hugged Mhisery and put a smile on her face, the one she had used at all the glymera events she had been to* You are most welcome Mhisery, please do not hesitate to ever call me *watching her walk towards the stairs she headed back to the Pit her head and heart both hurt*

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  Cormia Ahgony

  ‎*She stood in the kitchen in the Great Camp, looking out the window at the beautiful night sky. The view here was amazing, stars & mountains as far as the eye could see. She finished setting up the bread and cheese plate, while waiting for Phury to get back home with Fritz's apricot chutney that she loved so much. She knew the instant that Phury arrived home. She could scent his unease, and a bit of anger. She walked into the foyer to greet him with a smile, and hopefully be of some ease to him.* Welcome home, hellren mine. Is everything okay?

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  Phury Ahgony

  ‎*He met Cormia in the foyer, and gave her a kiss and hug. He continued on down the hallway, and could tell she was following, waiting for an answer. He walked into the kitchen, and carefully set the chutney down on the counter. He desperately did not want to discuss this with her, there was no way he was going to come out looking good in any part of the story. What really was there to say, anyways. Nothing had changed. Nor would it ever. He turned back to her, ready to simply tell her no, nothing was wrong. As he met her eyes, he knew he couldn't lie to her, even by omission.* Cormia. I saw Zee when I was there. He is not doing well, and we had words.

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  Cormia Ahgony

  ‎*As soon as she heard his twin's name come from his mouth, she knew this was not going to be a pleasant talk. She didn't want to push, but she knew he needed to let off some of this steam.* He's not well? *She took his hand, the food all but forgotten, and led him into the living room. She sat on the love seat, and gently pulled him to sit next to her, as he did, she found her favorite spot, tucked into his side, with his arm around her. She looked up at him.* Tell me what is bothering you, Nallum.

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  Phury Ahgony

  ‎*he slowly released his breath and as she pressed her body against his, he relaxed even further. He rested his head on hers, inhaling her jasmine scent as he pressed a kiss to her temple. With his eyes closed, he silently thanked the Scribe once more for allowing him to be with her, to be loved by her.*

  Physically, he is fine. It's his emotional state. I don't know what happened to cause this kind of anger, I haven't seen it in a long time. Had hoped never to again. We had words. * Abruptly, he stopped talking. He didn't deserve to be here, next to her, with his son safely asleep in his bed. He wasn't worthy of this family. And if Cormia knew that the wizard was looking for him again, she would realize it and leave. Part of him wanted to be honorable enough to let her go, but the thought shook him down to his soul.*

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  Cormia Ahgony

  ‎*She needed to get him to open up, and she could tell the "words" he had with his twin earlier had affected him, whether he wanted to believe it or not. She lifted his arm from around her, and crawled up into his lap. She knew her closeness brought him peace & grounded him. When she looked into his eyes, she was taken aback. She had seen this look before, this was the look of the Wizard. She rubbed her hand across his chest, just over his heart.* Nallum, please, talk to me. I want to help, but you have to let me in.

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  Phury Ahgony ‎*He loved the feel of her, on his lap, touching him, grounding him back in reality. He wrapped his arms around her, but he knew it was obvious he was not completely present in the moment.* Leelan, everything is fine. Zee and I will move past this and be fine, I am going to give him space. Thank you for caring about me.

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  Cormia Ahgony ‎*She heard his half-assed answer and got a bit ticked. They were mated. His issues were hers and vice-versa. And he was holding back? She looked up at him* You're going to give him space, huh? Kinda like you're giving me space right now? *She inhaled deeply before she got too angry* If you don't tell me, then I can't help you, Nallum. *she put her hand to his cheek* Please tell me what's troubling you.

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  Phury Ahgony

  ‎*He should have known she wouldn't let him avoid this. She always saw through his bullshit and made him deal with it. One of the things he loved about her. She never took the easy way out. How to tell her about this? About the shame he felt..* Cormia, truly, it is nothing new, and yet, the pain, when it comes, always feels fresh for some reason. There was accusations flung, on both sides. And Zee thinks I hate him. Also, that I would use again. * he couldn't meet her eyes at that last part. He knew in his heart he wouldn't but there was not way to explain to someone who had never had an addiction what this felt like*

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  Cormia Ahgony

  ‎*She listened to him intently, and her blood ran cold when he mentioned the possibility of him using again. She remembered all too well her time in the manse, when she was first mate. Phury constantly lighting up, and just not being all there, no matter how much he thought he was. They did not need to go down that road again. She ran her hand thru his hair to try to ease him & let out a defeated sigh.* Nallum, I am here for you, please know that. *She took his hand and led him to their bedroom* Just hold me, please.

  Mhisery Muhrdock

  ‎*She climbed the stairs with her heart heavy. She was dreading this conversation, if she was truthful with herself, she had been dreading this conversation since her birth. Her hand clung heavily to the banister as she trudged upstairs, each step laden with fear and anxiety. She made it to the landing atop the stairs and took a long look at the door that shut the world away from Qhuinn and herself. She thought for a long time before she moved closer. Did she really want to open that door and let the world in? She didn't have much of a choice, she loved him and he deserved to know. She stood poised with her hand on the door knob as she let out a long breath and pushed it open.* Qhuinn, have you got a minute? We need to talk. *She had started and their was no turning around now.*

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  Qhuinn Lohstrong ‎*He lifted his head from the pillow, reaching for the remote control with his right hand and hitting the mute button. Pushing up in on the bed, he rested back against the pillows and looked . He hated that expression on her face and fuck, yeah he felt like he had put it there. Yet another regret to add to his list that was growing longer by the hour.* Course I have a minute, I have all the time you need leelan. So what's wrong? *He linked his fingers together and cracked his knuckles then rested them across his stomach*

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  Mhisery Muhrdock ‎*She dropped her head and took the few steps over to the end of the bed. She sat down, tucking her legs underneath her and tucking her hair behind her ears. She swallowed hard a few times to clear the lump in her throat so she could even start the simple formation of a sentence.* So earlier when you asked about how I felt about my name, it got me to thinking maybe you don't know all that much about me. *That was the hardest thing she had ever said in her life. The fear of telling him how she felt about him had nothing on this.* So I will tell you what I know, how I got my name, and everything else up till when we met. *She searched his face for any sign of any emotion. Contempt, disgust, anything.* Unless you don't want to know.

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  Qhuinn Lohstrong ‎*He let her finish talking, processing her words before he said anything. He couldn't deny the fact he wanted to know more about her, he wanted to know everything about the person that he loved. That was any sane person's want or need.* I want to hear whatever you want to tell me *He tried hiding the spark of interest she had flared in him, but he knew it showed on his face. He hated that she was sitting away from him but right now he wasn't sure he could trust himself to take her into his arms without somehow hurting her again. Instead he angled his body, moving onto his side, his leg touching the side of hers* I'm listening

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  Mhisery Muhrdock ‎*She saw some emotion flash in his eyes but was fearful that is was not interest but more like he had trapped a lab rat and was about to dissect it with a blunt tool. She was thankful for the contact that he made by touching her leg with his, it was the nudge for her to proceed. She let out a long sigh.* My mahmen and father were never married. My father was married to another woman and he held an important position within the glymeria. *She pinched the bridge of her nose between her thumb and forefinger* My mahmen, Scribe lover her, was not from a well respected family, not at all. My mahmen used to clean the house that my father and his shellan lived in with their young. *She dropped her head again* My mahmen, the maid, starting having an affair with the mated hellren of another female, who turned out to be my father. That is how I was conceived. *she held her breath and waited before she proceeded*

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  Qhuinn Lohstrong ‎*He let her talk and frowned as she stopped. He knew there was more to her story but he didn't want to push her hard in case she ran from it. Instead, he gave her a slow nod reached over to the bedside cabinet for his bottle of Herradura. Uncapping it, he raised it to his mouth and took a long pull then offered it over to her.* You think it would bother me that your parents were not mated? Mine were and hated me every day I lived. For not being perfect, simple really. Being mated is not always the best thing in live *He rested his head in his hand, elbow bent and nodded for her to continue*

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  Mhisery Muhrdock ‎*She exhaled a long, exhausted breath.* My mahmen thought she was in love with the bastard. She was actually excited to find out she was pregnant with me, but my father wasn't at all. He relieved my mother of her services, both as his maid and as his whore, but not before he told everyone she was a whore that lied, and put her out for a thief. My mahmen never stole anything in her life, but because he was respected and she wasn't, no one would hire her for work. She didn't have anywhere to go so she did what she could do. *She couldn't bring herself to say the things that she was sure her mahmen had done to survive. Her mahmen had never spoke of it, but when she got old enough, it didn't take long for her to learn* Qhuinn I was born in a time when there was no Safe Place for females, and when I was birthed it was on the floor of some abandoned house somewhere. *She took the bottle from his hand and took a long pull, hoping for courage to continue* When I was about three days old my mahmen took me to the house of my father's. She wanted help, she wanted acknowledgment, she want a life for me, but my father wouldn't have any part of that. When my mahmen asked what she should do with me my father to told her to drown me in the river like any bastard would drown their misery. He said the best thing should could do was call me Mhisery as that is all I would ever be to anyone that ever came in contact with me. My mahmen left there and we never went back.

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  Qhuinn Lohstrong ‎*His face tightened with anger at what her father had put both her as a new born infant who should have been loved and protected, to forcing any female of their race to do the things he had no doubt she wasn't saying. It didn't take a genius to work out what the female would have had to do to survive, to feed and clothe her child.* That fucking bastard, i hope if he is dead, he is spending eternity in suffering and if he lives I hope he feels everyone of his countless years. I hope each day even his very breath pains him. *He shot upright in the bed and reached out of her hand, lacing their fingers together. Raising their joined hands to his lips, be pressed a kiss to her knuckles* You are not my misery leelan

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  Mhisery Muhrdock ‎*She squeezed his hand* There's more. It wasn't so bad you know? When you don't know anything else, you really can't miss it. I had my mahmen and we lived different places until I was about ten, then one night, just when we were waking up, a group of Lessers, four of them to be exact, they came into the house where we were staying. My mahmen heard them and told me to act like I was still asleep. I remember closing my eyes so tight, but they didn't buy it. One grabbed my mahmen and one grabbed me. The one held me while the other one killed my mahmen. I saw it all. *She stared blankly at the wall as the entire image played back in the movie that was her mind. She could see the eyes of all of them, burned into her memory.* When I got older I killed them all but one. I'm still looking for him. *She spoke with a monotone voice, before she mentally shook herself to get back on track* After my mahmen was killed I was taken to Havers clinic. They started asking me who my father was, but I didn't know. They thought I was lying and a run away. So they took some blood and matched me took my father. They returned me to his house, and at first my father denied it, but when Havers told him that I matched his DNA he didn't have any choice. I still remember the way his shellan looked at me, like I was a dirty disease. She hated me nearly as much as he did just for being born. *she shook her head at the irony* The pretended that they had been looking for me, and they were so good at it that I believed it. I thought I my father had really been looking for me, up until they shut the door and my father beat the hell out of me for being a disgrace, and upsetting his shellan. They through me out, and I have been on my own since.

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  Qhuinn Lohstrong ‎*An icy blast slammed out of his body, his fangs punching into his mouth as rage filled him* He threw you out, a child? His own child? *He asked, the words bit out through clenched teeth* Tell me where he is leelan, I will make him pay for what he did to you. *He made a move to swing off the bed then stopped. Turning back to look at her, he met her gaze* One of the lesser still lives? How many years ago was that? *He realized there and then he had never asked how old she was. He knew she was older than him but by how much he didn't know. The Lesser that she was looking for could already be dead, or could have faded out so much he would be undistinguishable from any other Lesser that the Omega had created.*

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  Mhisery Muhrdock ‎*She grabbed his arm* He's dead, my father, not the lesser. It was 71 years ago Qhuinn and yeah the one Lesser still lives. That is who I hunt. *She clinched her teeth* I wish I could say I do it to defend the race, or some noble reason, but it's for plain old revenge. I'm always glad to kill more than is needed but I'm always looking for that one. His eyes will always give him away. Maybe not through could, but I will never forget what they looked like. *She breathed out again and unclenched her teeth* So I survived on my own, fed from humans and did what was *she paused while she thought of a word* required of me to get what I needed. I lived in abandoned houses until I got here. I met Throe when I was out hunting Lessers. He fought beside me and would allow me to take his vein. He was a gentleman too me and if for him I would have died when I got sick. That brings me up to now, I may gave glossed over a few details but it's not hard for you to read through the lines of those things. If you need me to say them I will, but it's not something I am proud of by any means. *She braced and waited. She wanted to curl up somewhere and hide, but she couldn't. She had told him everything and if he walked away, then she could understand why, but it wasn't going to be because she had kept anything from him*

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  Qhuinn Lohstrong ‎*He tightened his jaw until he thought it would break under the pressure when he heard the Bhastard's name. He hated them nearly as much as he hated lessers. Even if they did kill them, he hated what they thought they stood for or were fighting for. When she finished talking, he looked at her and his heart missed a beat. She thought he would reject her, that he was that much of a low down dirty fucker that he would shun her because she did whatever it was she needed to do to survive.* Mhisery *he waited until she looked at him then reached out for her wrist, tugging her across the bed and into the shelter of his arms. He said nothing for a few minutes, just wrapped his arms tight around her and pressed her head against his chest where he knew his heart was pounding* None of that matters to me *He had no room to ever judge someone on their actions. His own where less that perfect even though he was obviously a lot older than he was.* Your name or what you have done to get to where you are now is in the past. It is the future that you.. no we need to concentrate on *He said the words, but if he was truthful with himself they were hard to believe. He hated himself at the moment was so full of regret for his actions, especially hurting her*

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  Mhisery Muhrdock ‎*She lay calmly against his chest, his massive arms and listened as he spoke. His deep voice lulling her and urging her to listen.* Nallum I could say the same thing to you and you would find it just as hard to believe as I do.